Sometime in late 2010, I was presented with a surprising quarter-life crisis. I wasn’t entirely sure of who I had turned into.
How could I reconcile that slightly crazy, idealistic, literature-obsessed college student (who had BIG PLANS) with the currently quieter, less-opinionated woman who would (might, probably) sacrifice a limb for 20 minutes alone with a cup of coffee?
Well, I’m sure there are a few different ways to do that, but for me, it was blogging. Suddenly, the thoughts that I feared would get lost in my mushy haze of a brain were catalogued. I didn’t feel like I was slowly morphing into a giant diaper bag anymore. I had a new connection with the outside world, and I felt invigorated.
I’m still in a love-affair with blogging, but, until recently, my blog shared my name. No spunky or witty title could every find its way to the top. I couldn’t ever figure out how to categorize myself.
(Here’s where the Curtain and Pen part comes in, I promise.)
I studied Theatre and English in college. I loved (love) both of these subjects, but in this particular season of my life (the motherhood one), I didn’t think I could find any room for those two things that were oh so important back in the early 00’s.
What I didn’t realize was that I was using both of my college majors… almost every day. I’m writing for myself… for other people… and using the internet as my stage. It took me a long time to understand that I didn’t have to be reciting Shakespeare on a balcony or presenting literary criticism at conferences to be “using” my college degree. I’m using it to make a living through writing and editing… I’m using it to present my ideas and feelings in a public forum … even if that forum is a screen rather than a stage.
Theatre (the Curtain) and English (the Pen) are still alive and well in my life today, and I’m totally pumped that you’re here to share it with me. I may not blog every day … or every week, even, but I blog when I’ve got time, or when I’m inspired, or when I just can’t keep something to myself anymore. It means a lot to feel some camaraderie in this confusing universe, so if you’ve got something to add to these one-sided conversations, I’d love some company!